Rewinding back to last December, all I can remember saying was “2016 is going to be my year”.
I found my tribe, I was about to take on the challenge of finding a new career path, I was building two brands, I was learning a whole bunch about myself through ups and downs. I was so ready to create something big.
Six months in I had experienced the lowest of lows. I was forced to face myself honestly, with a serious reality check. My thoughts, actions and behaviour had to change. I recently made a commitment to myself; one that would require me to play in an arena of vulnerability, transformation, growth, and movement. I asked the people around me to hold me to my word; to ensure I would play in that arena with integrity and respect for myself.
Sounds easy, right? It’s been one of the hardest things to change. Taking a stand in that arena required me to walk in and close the doors to a few things, putting them behind me, all the while still seeing the people and potential successes through those foggy glass doors.
One of those potential successes is one of the most important things in my life. As many of you know, I helped build a brand called When In Doubt Love (WIDL for short). Beyond being a brand or selling a product, it was a movement, one that I identified with so much and needed to push into the world.
With a sunken heart and watering eyes, it’s time to share that I will no longer be a part of this company. I’ve been worried about how I would tell the people who supported, believed and backed me. I felt like I’d be letting you down. I felt like I was giving up on something that was building up so much momentum and was just about to take off.
However, for the first time in my life I believe that everything has a purpose and a lesson. A year ago, I couldn’t say the words “I love you”. I didn’t know what it was like to love someone and I didn’t know what it was like to feel love or companionship. I now know what I want from a relationship. I now know what I am capable of and worthy of.
A year ago I didn’t know what it was to take a stand for myself. I now know how to respect myself and live in a world where I can create possibilities.
A year ago I always had to be right. I needed control, I would fight until I got what I wanted. I’m now learning to let go of the illusion of ego and possessions.
When In Doubt Love brought me to where I needed to be so I could learn to love myself and sincerely learn to love everything around me.
While I am leaving this project, it doesn’t mean I am giving up on creating. It means I just made a huge space that is ready to be filled with the magic.
I am going to continue to build my personal brand and work with amazing people on incredible collaborations and I hope that you continue to support me on this journey.
2016 is still going to be my year.